Rebellious Temptation

I’m not a perfect person
There’s many things I wish I didn’t do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I’ve found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I’m sorry that I hurt you
It’s something I must live with every day
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That’s why I need you to hear

I’ve found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I’m not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I’ve found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I’ve found a reason to show
A side of me you didn’t know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

Nobody wanna see us together but it don’t matter no cause I got you, babe.. (Don’t Matter-Akon)

Reminding me to grand memories you shed to my life. My limbic system sometimes overreacts whenever I try to retrieve those memories again. Sacrifices we did, promises we made and those hopes and dreams we shared were incredibly marvelous. Bitter end that we unfortunately had to face brought sorrow and misery to my life but now for my life still has its path to carry on, I let you go, already not thinking about you again..

But hey, I just wanna say this simple and cliche phrase..

I miss you.. :]

I begin to forget the memories about you. I can no longer remember the good times we had, even if I try to sketch your face in my imagination,doesn’t work. What I feel is just anger and the will of revenge. Then I start to think, that those two things will just break me down to the core. Deciding to just let everything go is a wise choice, isn’t it?

I just don’t understand why I can get rid of you so fast, without doing hypnotherapy or even some spiritual healing, I just forget you. Maybe, the pain you granted to me as just as big as it grows into a big hole inside my heart. The hole that sucks every single memorabilia about the two of us. I’m no longer having a heartache every time you try to hurt me. You’re no longer a big thing for me, you’re no longer the guy I have to be cared about, you’re no longer the guy that I used to be madly in love with. You’re now just a piece of my past and sadly I can’t think about the good we made.

Forgetting you is not as hard as I thought it would be…

because I know, somehow, somewhere, my someone is waiting patiently for me… :]